The Other Poker Face Soraya

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Monday, August 15, 2011

Kau fikir banyak sangat/You think too much

Everyone has fears. and i'm not an exception for this. I have quite a number of fears. But the mighty one would be Fear of the Unknown. 

"Fear of the unknown is a peculiar condition in most of us, where we find ourselves at our wit's end while thinking of embarking upon something we are not acquainted with"

What's wrong with me? I can't go on like this. It would definitely close down windows of opportunity.  I keep on saying I can't do that, I can't do this. WHY? I guess because i never tried it before, I'm not familiar with it. I fear of the new and to cope up with prevailing situations. I'm afraid I might take a wrong turn and that turn could end up to an undesirable area which again..... I'm AFRAID i will regret it later. I want that road to be the same, no bumpy no dusty no hassle no fassle. I have this negative feelings towards places or situation that i don't know well enough. I am too comfortable with my own creation of cubicle.

I hope this is normal.
Everyone feels the same when it comes to something they are not familiar with or else..
I will hate myself for this.

My dear self, open  your eyes, open your mind and pretty please open your heart. Perhaps there are places that you could beautifully treasure. Yes there is nothing wrong to be optimistic but please do.. do count your blessings of life. Be realistic. Live with your fears and you could miss out on something fabulous.

One of my close friends conclude my fear of the unknown by saying 'Kau fikir banyak sangat' aka You think too much'.... I guess she's right.

Rely on yourself. Trust yourself. You can do this.

Cik So

Saturday, August 6, 2011


Have you ever been in this kind of situation?

You walking down the street la la la la and ACCIDENTally you bumped into your outa space friend. I mean.. the one that you don't want to get involve or even have eye contact like in 10 million years. You've tried so hard to ignore her but as you both walk at the same opposite face to face direction, there's nothing you can do . tak dapek nak lari dah. you have to say 'hi' . Or else, you both can only angkat kening , senyum separa ikhlas and off you go. Erk, ill opt the first one. saya orang melayu. ada budi bahasa.

Cik So pura pura terkejut: 'Eh Tina.. How are you?'

Tina kerek: 'Oh Cik so. Fine. How about you?' 

Cik So dingin: 'I'm good'

Creek Creek... Creek Creek...

Tina kerek: 'Err.. buat apa sekarang?' soalan wajib.

Cik So boring: 'Oh i dah kerjakat sinun. How about you?'

Tina dah start nak show off: 'Oh i dah jadi housewife. Husband I lah tak nak I kerja. Dia mampu nk tanggung I. He wants me to focus jaga family je. So ni lah kerja I. Shopping.. Holiday-ing. Er.. you dah kahwin?'

Cik So pantang tanya pasal kawin: 'Oh belum lagi'

Tina dah start nak korek rahsia: 'Eh , dulu kan you couple ngn mamat kepala angin dia je betul tuh? You still dengan dia kan?'

Cik So pantang tanya pasal ex boyfie: 'Oh dia tuh, boleh pergi mamp sama dia. Cakap tak serupa bikin, before couple kemain sayang cinta lautan api nk renang, gunung ganang nak panjat, tau tau je dah nampak perempuan dahi jendol terus terpikat'


Jawapan sebenar Cik So: 'Oh takde jodoh dengan dia'

Tina si mamarazzi: 'Oh sorry to hear bout that. apa jadi between you two? Dulu kemain loving couple?'

Cik So nak ngelat: 'It's a long story dear. Ops tik tok tik tok, I really need to go now. Need to run some errands. You know what? Let's HANG OUT! You still pakai the same number kan? I'll call you later aite!

And.. off me go. bye bye tina aso santiago.